Friday, February 21, 2014

Oh oh ohhhh, that's the Law of Circulation!

This less connect from FB continues to produce good things. Great things even.

I have been technically active on my old account because I am going through my stuff and selling some of it (and having a grand ol' time doing it on amazon. As if I didn't like that website enough!). I'm giving most away and throwing some away as well. Holy guacamole. Feels. So. Good. It's even become addicting. See? Addicting personality.... Need to use that for good not evil.

Anyway, I go on to skim my notifications to see if anyone posted on anything I'm selling. Then I leave. Oh wait, I've sent a few productive messages. I just go on do what I need to do and leave. It's a miracle. I wasn't really sure I was capable, honestly. I have caught myself scrolling through the news feed a couple times and just stop and close the window and get back to looking for anything and everything I want out of the house. As I declutter, I can think more clearly and doors open up for me. The Law of Circulation in action, no doubt. I didn't even realize that's what was happening until a couple days ago. Saweeeeeet!


Homeopathy class continues to enlighten. There's a lot of reading...because it's a class. Haha! But it's been a while since I took a class and I guess I managed to forget this part. Luckily I love to read so it works out well. :D

I am rapidly approaching the halfway point of this pregnancy and can't believe it at all. I'm feeling the brewin' newb move more and more. So amazing!

I'm not sure what else really. Just continuing to get and stay focused and it just feels truly fantastic!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

What a Process

This less plugged life...I continue to do better with my unattached FB account, which is great! I've also stayed off FB with my main account for another week! Even with one of my best friends/cousin having a baby yesterday morning. Thank goodness for email and text photos ;) ....and for aunts returning to my house so I can go meet her this morning! Wheee!

I didn't really get to share a few updates and news flashes with my last post. First, a couple updates. Tai Chi is half over and I love it. Practicing at home with two boys closing in on 2 and 4 has proven to be the most challenging part. I need to start making sure I do it when they go to bed or if I happen to wake up before them. I really love everything about it though and look forward to experiencing the mindless moving meditation when I'm not worrying about where to put my hands and if I've fully switched all my weight to balance on one leg before stepping. I hadn't planned on taking the second part of the class when I first signed up but I have since changed my mind!

I'm not sure if I shared before that I'm taking a homeopathy class? Well I am. :D This is an Intro to Homeopathy all done through email on my own time. I've managed to stay on top of what seems like a lot of reading and find it all very interesting indeeeeed! Fascinating really. From the history and development (the founding doctors testing and "proving" the remedies on themselves!) of it to the modern day "debate" about single versus combo remedies between homeopaths....good stuff! By the end of the class one of the best things is that I will finally feel completely comfortable knowing what remedy to use for which acute need...which will be ideal with 2 potentially 3 little boys in this house, one that I'm convinced is part eating anything climbing on anything goat! 

Then a couple news flashes!! My 3.75 year old who refused to even sit on a kiddie potty for um EVER, was 98% potty trained in about a week. Oh happy day and praise The Lord! Dare I say that it was easy, with a little help from a Woody doll, sitting in his box on top of the vanity in the bathroom just waaaaaiting to be taken out of a box by a big toilet using boy. I'm pretty sure he was already familiar with how it felt to need to go to the bathroom, because he didn't have one accident the first two days. Any accidents he has had weren't too bad, except for the very first one. Seems like every time he has one he learns from it because he hasn't had the same kind of accident twice, which doesn't make sense but it does. :D

In other news, I scheduled our 20 week ultrasound for next month already and I'm feeling flutters. Cherishing those! Excited to see the brewin' newb on the ultrasound next month. Another 5 weeks actually but time flies when you are chasing around a goat boy, hee! As of right now we don't plan on finding out if a boy or girl is brewin' in there. I don't have a definite feeling of what it is either, I never did with either of my other two either. So we shall see!

Well now that I've babbled, I need to at least touch on my title eh? This whole unplugging thing is a such process. In terms of using some of that time to get things done that need to be done....uh, yea still working on that. I have very productive days and then wowza....nadda. Yet I'm not on FB, so I'm not sure what I'm doing? So there's the next challenge/goal... I don't want to be using all my newly created time on being productive with tasks because that was only part of the point of leaving FB. Finding balance really is the theme for 2014 for me. From literally finding balance in Tai Chi to balancing the things of daily life. I need to make sure I just unplug my adult mind and play in a fort or pretend to be a polar bear who catches the kids and tosses them on ice berg cushions. Tapping into my inner kid shouldn't really take to long to perfect because I still feel like a kid a lot of the time! That's really the most important goal of this whole thing, being present with my kids. Being in the moment and not distracted with what I need to do or want to learn. I'm feeling encouraged as I continue to make slow steady progress! 

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Unplugging Update: This is hard. No it's not. Yes it is. I need a nap.

I did some unplugging from my biggest internet addiction. The Facebook.

I originally deactivated but after realizing that all the information I posted in my Natural Living group completely disappeared, I reactivated my main account and just logged off with no current plans for when to log back in. I was hesitant at first, unsure that I would be able to stay logged off, but then I realized all I have to do to reactivate is log back in anyway. So what's the difference. At least all the helpful info is still around if I'm only logged off.

How is it going you may or may not be wondering? I dont really know yet. I haven't logged back in with my main/distracting account. I never realized how much time I spent scrolling through the feed and getting distracted with other people's lives. There's so many friends and pages that I like with that account, it is just one big distraction for me.

My unattached account isn't nearly as big of a distraction BUT I'm still not "there" yet. That one is connected to no one and just a couple of priceless groups for natural health knowledge. However, that's basically another addiction of mine, so I need to stay honest with myself of how often I'm on with that account. I was on every day but for much less time than "usual" and just to share some info in my group or do a quick look at a couple groups. I definitely feel like I still need to work on that. 

I'm on other social networks like Twitter and Instagram but I'm not addicted to those. I like to swing over to Twitter to share a new blog post or something cool I just found now and then, not even every week. 

So it hasn't been a total unplug from all things internet. Just a major cut back. I feel like I do have some of my life back. And really, thank God for it. It's hard to admit you have an addiction. It's hard to be honest about it. Getting to a place where you can do something about it is hard too. There was a lot of inner dialogue...for several months. 

Yep, I have a problem.

Hmm. That sucks but I don't think I can do anything about this. I mean how can I not be on here? Look at everything I will miss. Look at everything I won't be able to share.

There's really a problem here. What's this doing to my kids. There's no way it's not doing anything to them.

I don't WANT to cut back. I like it here. A lot.

Rinse and repeat for months until finally, something breaks I guess. I'm not sure what broke for me. I suppose it was my brain. "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results." Yea that sounds about right. I would be on and off FB for most of the day and my brain would hurt and I'd not be able to stay off. Like once I was down the hole, I might as well just stay here and stay online because I can't get out. I remember telling my friend on several occasions that I was making myself nuts with this FB. So yea, my brain broke.

It's hard to accept that I can't "do it all". Or more that yes, I can do it all but then I miss out on my life and my kids lives, and they miss out on me. Do I want to do it all or have it all? When I really stop and think of what's most important, it's not what's on FB. It's not who is on FB. It's not working a side job to become financially free. It's being present to enjoy my now before my kids are grown and gone and before I lose myself entirely to the insanity of trying to do it all to have it all. 

All the energy spent wasted on FB....amazing things can happen when they energy is used for something positive. Relationships grow, I've seen this in just the week or so since I've been off with my  3.5 year old. He's changed a lot to me. More confident, listens better, more big brotherly. I actually get things done around the house with the otherwise wasted energy. Go figure. :P

Probably my most "duh" moment of all of this, that I still re-realize here and there, is that God has my back. Hello. He has everything all figured. All I need to do is nuture my relationship with Him and my husband and kids and the rest will sort itself out. Matthew 6:26 "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?" Doh! Yes! And I'll keep realizing this how many more times in my life? Probably a bajillionity. ;)

I know this is just the very beginning of the transformation! I hope you will join me!